Daughters of Mara

How am I doing? I don’t really know.
I am out so far that I have to let go.
It does not feel bad but I feel so alone.
I know this is the way I have to go home.
I want to relax and just not mind,
To know what’s ahead and leave the past behind.
I can see myself at the summit mountain top.
I do not feel as if I know how to stop.
The dakini’s call out so loudly in my mind.
I know that I have to go to that place in another time.
My guts know that I cannot refuse,
The dakini’s that protect those treasures anew.
But how can I do all that I see ahead?
I decide to not worry and look to each step instead.
I know what the goal ultimately is.
To be connected to everyone in bliss.
I feel like I am in a vehicle of light.
That has no brakes to reverse my plight.
I want to awaken and become entirely sane.
That does not mean that anything I do will appear the same.
I know that I am confused but that makes the path suddenly clear.
There is only one way so there is no need to steer.
The daughters of Mara call out for me to take a break.
But there is no time and I do this not for my sake.
Do you see the light coming in from the east?
My mind’s protection blocks the beast.
The ego’s territory seems very cheap.
That is why Tantra is called a great feast.
Where is the one who holds the crazy wisdom?
It is only through him (her) that I will receive the transmission.
I surrender open and trust the universe.
It might be wonderful or the reverse.
It does not matter which way it goes.
The ego is the only one who cares to know.
The teacher has put my snake in a tube.
He (she) knows which end to open and use.
I feel claustrophobic from this point of view.
Yet, it is a delightful gift in which to be amused.
I am tapping into areas which had been left alone.
But this is exciting and tremendously fun.
I suddenly feel in league with death.
It is what will happen regardless of my depth.
Depth is an illusion that means nothing in time.
Compassion is the key that will help my soul unwind.